One mom's journey of loss, faith, death, and inevitably…life

I’m a wife and a mom and a co-business owner and I’ve been through LOTS of therapy…and I’m not so sure that I’m done.  I am a “recovered” co-dependent and a woman who has buried a child.  It should be clear why I needed that therapy.  I am mostly patient, kind, and generous, except when I’m not.  And I struggle with choices…so many laid out before us every day, and I always want to somehow figure out the right answer to each of them.  I know…it’s absurd.  I am continually recognizing that we don’t get to “get it right” and that perhaps that is not even the point.  Some days I’m settled and some days I’m searching.  Mostly, I like ideas and possibility, so I decided to begin a blog for myself and for you…to explore possibility.

If you are pushing up daisies, you are dead.  But if you are dead and fertilizing daisies, then you are sort of alive, too.  This is how I view my son, who died from a massive oxygen loss at birth in June, 2010…dead, but sort of alive, too.  In fact, I know that everything that I have ever written since his death has not truly come from my hand, but from his or God’s or both or however that actually happens.  We all (who are still alive) can only dream about that truth, and I believe those dreams are really good and really worthwhile.  Daisies are fun and whimsical and cute and not at all elegant, but…earthy…   Death and life.  Life and death.  Hard to talk about one without the other.  So as I develop my voice and clarify my thinking about life and death and faith and truth, it seems that it should be fun and whimsical and cute and not at all elegant, but…earthy…salt of the earth-ish earthy.  Stop in…or stay to dig in the dirt!  Maybe we can grow something together…


6 Comment(s)

  1. matt

    05/26/2014 at 3:36 PM

    The world is a better place with you…

  2. Kathy Mueller

    12/24/2015 at 9:55 PM

    Well Jess now that the word is out that you committed to posting once a week…..I guess I will hold you accountable to that….haha. Love you and your writing. Such a gift.
    Kathy Mueller

  3. bonnevivantelife

    01/13/2016 at 2:56 AM

    So grateful Lisa connected us! Love your writing, it FEELS so much like my writing style. Really looking forward to reading more. Thank you for sharing your stories, your life!

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